Friday, June 02, 2006
my brother,hashrie, has been away at my
cousin's.
he came back yesterday, and he cried cause he missed me.
his emotional that way, pretty ironic for a guy.
though he sort of make me feel all-ever appreciated.
the people whom i had deeply depended on
is having poor attendance in my life, so
to be appreciated is something
big for me. It sort of filled the void in my heart-
just for a milisecond before i resumed
plotting revenge against Farah.
Wan sent me another sappy message
yesterday, well i guess my messaged have
been intercepted by his thick skull.
is that message suppose to make me
weak in the knees?
well, it had the opposite effect on me-
nauseated.
i dont hate him, he just annoys the
hell out of me.
I might be unreasonable here but
he's like this bad butt rash that keeps coming back.
and you keep sratching the butt rash till
your ass balloons but it wont go away.
worse, there's no antiseptic cream
that's going to reduce the IRRITATION.
to me, he's just this figure which is getting tinier
as i ride into the sunset on a horse.
VERY distant from mind.
why cant he be cheering me on the sidelines
as i progress through life?
he's this huge barrier that's tough to hurdle through.
♥XOXO