diversion from my angst

so long

2008-03-29T19:55:00.001+08:00

hey i've moved to:

http://einsteincarnate.livejournal.com

p.s: i;ve already transferred all my entries there, which means
you can read all my archives.

p.p.s: unfortunately, some entries are private =)

working days

2008-03-29T00:00:00.003+08:00

so now, i shall talk about my 3 days working at the event.

OMGGGGGGGGGG, so many eye-candy, and mind you,
they have blue eyes! yaaaa, so many caucasians, i got so excited =)
and they are all so tall, taller than me, obviously!

some, were extremely funny and would just chat with me for awhile and
crack jokes.

but some, *coughs*asians*coughs*, pretty stuck up.

oh ya, and i saw this caucasian guy, who was bald but he is damn good looking,
and than there's a japanese guy who is DAMN tall, thats how i noticed him,
and very pretty too! some gave me their name cards, since it was a mainly for traders,
most of the men were in suits, DAMN MACHO!

but them most awesome part was when this caucasian guy, who was going to check out the
area as he would be having his booth in the next exhibition, he actually came up to me and asked if he could enter, which he could not since he doesnt have a pass. so anyways, the security guard(not the perverted one, if you're wondering), accompanied him.
when i was going for lunch, i bumped into him again as he was exiting, then he asked if i wanted to be one of the staffs during his exhibition, i was soooo eager.
but unfortunately, i would have already started school.

so the awesome part is that, i dont need to be able to speak mandarin to get a job if
the person hiring me is a caucasian. i mean, it's so easy for him to hire me, he just saw me working, no resumes required or interviews. yes, im being very sarcastic.
i still think that if i need to be able to speak mandarin, i wont ever get a job here. it is really unfair for people who cant speak mandarin, although they have better results *ahem,ahem*.

and i would also love to think that he actually offered me the job because i was nice to him
and very helpful and able to understand my fluent english when he asked for assistance.

and so, i dont see why we have to make it such an issue that one have to be able to speak mandarin just to get a job. and these people are put in the service line to serve the chinese speaking ones, but those who do not speak chinese gets someone who cant even pronounce their Rs and Ls properly. dont they always say "able to speak english and mandarin", what happen to the english part? if their english is going to be so incomprehensible, i could also claim to be able to speak chinese. after all those years watching chinese tv-shows, im sure i can speak mandarin as good as those people speaking english mispronouncing their Rs and Ls.

and you know what, till now, this recruitment agency has NEVER called me once, to go for
an interview, which also means they NEVER submitted my resume to ANY employers, that's how efficient (or bias) they are.
initially, i thought maybe it wasnt only me, but what do you know,
i asked my other colleagues if they faces the same issue, but no, they complained the opposite,
they said this recruitment agency could not stop calling them, and was verging on annoyance.
hmm, i mean, i've applied through them 3 times on 3 different occasions, once during my verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry long post 'O'level holidays 2 seperate polytechnic vaccations. but noooo,
i didnt even get any. not once. not a single phonecall.

but JL who applied at the same time as me, in fact we went together, got a job, both times she and i applied. although there were some delays for her, EVENTUALLY she did get an assignment. there was once she rejected the assignment, they NEVER even called me. that's how inefficient (or bias) they are. my resume was probably piled below some used loo paper.

but, it's alright now,cause i got a job which is much better off.

p.s: what a surprise, for this job i was like 1 of the 3 malays out of 50 staffs.
i dont see why there werent more malays since i didnt even need to be able to speak mandarin to carry out my job efficiently.

STUPID MOTHERFUCKING SECURITY GUARD

2008-03-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

i ended up with a very senile security guard during my job.

Rude #1:

Him: Eh why the malay guy after they pee they
always play with it with water, very disturbing,
everybody can see.

Me: It's for hygience what.

Him: You call that hygienic, after that touch the food
what not.

Me: They use left hand what, they eat all using right hand leh.

Him: I all this while since young, only use tissue paper, nothing
happen.

(this thing persist and i couldn't bother anymore)

My thoughts:

EWWWWWWWWWWW, his dick never been washed before.
WTH, i dont even want to touch his hand.
And he is so proud of it, that it has not dropped off from
his groin. Fucking disgusting.

Rude #2:

Him: Eh why all the fat malay girls like to wear very tight jeans ah?

Me: True, not very appealing.

Him: (cutting me off) ..expect other people to say they pretty is it

Me: (fakes laughter)

My thoughts:

WTF, it's as though he is implying all malay girls are fat.
He is being very rude, and kind of racist, but doing it in
such a way that it doesnt seem that way.
I mean, i could have said so much more.
Not all malay girls are fat, for fuck's sake.
and couldnt he just say "girls" instead of "fat girls"?

Rude #3:

Him: See all those malay pakcik, very old go batam
find young wife.

Me: Ya, they show that in malay tv-shows.

Him: Very old already still do this kindof things, haiyo

Me: hmm, yaa then get cheated of their CPF by the young girls,
serve them right lor.

Him: (laughs in agreement)

My thoughts:

ERRRRRM, it's not only malay guys who are beguiled by lust.
there are also other non-malay guys who has mistresses and
indulge in other scandalous activities. obviously, he failed
to observe that.
and mind you, i've been flashed 3 times, once by a foreigner and the
other two, by insert preferred race here guys )

Rude #4:

Him: eh, when you grow up ah, dont marry malay guy,
(points at the malay secuity guard(who happens to be fat, another
2 malay security guards who are not fat though), they are very lazy.

Me: (laughs) my mum has a friend whose mother said the same thing,
and her daughters all marry chinese man or ones that are not malays.

Him: ah see, they cannot provide you a good life want.

(blaaaaa..blaaaaaa...blaaaaa) I tell you, he is DAMN long-winded.

My thoughts:

I simply have to agree.

Rude #5:

Him: (starts telling me very salacious "facts" of lifes that he assumes
an 18 year old girl would be too stupid, moronic, idiotic to know)

mind you, he repeats the above speech OVER, OVER, OVER AGAIN.

Bottomline:

he likes to pretend to be curious and ask questions, but he is indirectly
pointing out the obvious flaw and is just being plain rude.
He is a bloody sexually deprived old man (should i mention his race and
be fucking sarcastic, ohhh how 'bout some hints: i only use tissue paper to clean myself)
haha, i mean come on, even my cats wash themselves by licking their boy bits AND
i wipe it using WIPES. and he uses toilet roll?! and PROUD of it? how disgusting
can one human get?

And he is perverted, talking to me about sexual stuffs, and ALWAYS
CONTRADICTING, quoting what he said

"you know all the european girls, at 12 already have sex. they are very open there.
unlike you girls here(referring to me and my other friend), very conservative.
women are thought to be that way cause you know why,
god bring us down to earth to procreate. like adam and eve, if not humans die there.
and you know why, cause we have wants (ie:HORNY, sexual drive, libido whatever you
want to call it) . once you get it ah, you cannot stop. you see, if not why prostituition is legal"

i then tried to change the subject, saying that i think it should not even be legal, letting women degrade themselves like that"

but he insisted, "no, it's because once you get it you cant stop. bla..bla..bla..blaa. if notlook at all
the young malay girls, very young pregnant already."

WTF??
didnt he just say, its better to be open-minded? and blamed me and my friend for being too
conservative? WTF, he is a fucking contradiction. like, it's ok for european girls to be nymphos
but if they are malay girls, it's unethical.
that fucking old guy talking shit.

and you know what?! he just proved himself a perverted old man cause
on my last day, he said "eh your last day already, can i give you a hug"

i said, "NO!", very indignantly.

and he went on" No laa, not from the front, from the back"

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
hugging from the back suppose to make me feel more willing is it?
dlshvkjfghkjdhfi, it's worse !
i dont want to feel his hard-on or shit like that
(considering it's still functioning well since he only uses tissue paper on it, EW.
haha, i know, there's no link, but whatever.)

overall fine

2008-03-24T22:18:00.003+08:00

i totally wasted 50 minutes of my life just now in a bus journey.
im such a public transport idiot.
i hate bus services that goes through loops.
i took one. and it totally delayed me.
i could have simply taken the one across the road
and reach my destination in 15 minutes!
but no, being a moron and heeding the advice of the streetdirectory online
i took the bus which journey lasted 58 minutes long,
only to arrive at the bus stop across.

and the journey was gruesome.
a girl sat beside me and was pratically in my lap salivating, ewww.
the bus was verrrrrrrrrrrrry crowded i had no idea where i was or
which bustop im at, i could not navigate myself crammed in a bus.
i was "temporarily misplaced" as i alighted at the bustop ahead.
i was so freaking lost. pacing back and forth the street where there
was much construction work.
this idiotic phase lasted for about 15 minutes.

an epiphany hit me and i decided to check the bustop for directory.
im SOOOOOOO stupid, totally lost my common sense.
apparently, i had alighted one stop ahead only, hahha.
sooo walk the long stretch of road back, had to walk pass
those private houses with huge angry dogs as pets.
my fear for dogs heightened, so terrified.

finally reach the correct street,
so reliefed when i saw the huge
name of the company on the building!
so went for interview.
i lasted less than 30 minutes
including filling up the application and
waiting, thank god, cause it was getting dark and no way in
hell am i walking through that empty street alone. in the dark.

when it ended, it RAINED. very very heavily.
to add on, of all the days, i had to choose today to not bring
an umbrella!
i always bring my umbrella.
soaking wet, walking back to the bustop which is quite far.
i got so self conscious, my eyeliner and mascara was probably
streaking down my cheeks.
and everybody get to witness my small boobs(considering the situation,
im thankful for smal boobs).
my hair could be mistaken for a rat's nest.
i hate my hair wet.

so, anyways, got home
and checked my email.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,
i got the job!
AWESOME.

so, im sooo psyched, since im working at airport,
i hope to see cute boys, especially caucasian ones.

p.s: i hope i didnt bore you.
p.p.s: oh ya, this is another job, so i got 2 jobs
consecutively since they are for short periods.

dorkydorky

2008-03-22T21:06:00.003+08:00

You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman.
You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling.

A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you.
And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off.

You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky.
You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?

p.s: just having identity issues, sexual dilemma.haha, dont worry my dear girls, i won't hit on you..now that i know im mentally female. see see, im "highly selective" and "picky", singledom.

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are highly energetic. You are a passionate, intense, vigorous person.

You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.

You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.

You don't a lot of space, and you prefer to spend time with others. You are a little nosy and intrusive. You sometimes don't give people enough space.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

p.s: BULLSHIT. i love spending time alone, is this statement ambiguous? i dont see how people can think otherwise, or some other analytical perspective. is this ambigous enough? oh yeah, they forgot angry, as in i'm angry, one of those commonly used adjectives when describing a Liyana.

You Should Get a PhD in Science (like chemistry, math, or engineering)

You're both smart and innovative when it comes to ideas.
Maybe you'll find a cure for cancer - or develop the latest underground drug.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

p.s: glad to know im on the right track =)

You Are 40% Scary

You scare men off ocassionaly, but only very weak men.
You're a normal woman. You're not perfect, but you're pretty darn close.

Do You Scare Off Men?

p.s: hahahaha, better than i expected. then, why are my nights filled with DIY orgasms.haha

thumbs up

2008-03-18T17:11:00.002+08:00

yay, i got it i got it i got it.

ok, back to reading my love stories.
i love indulging in ficticious love stories,
since my love life(or lack thereof) isn't that amazing.
these saccharine stories made me feel devoid of any love,
like hollow mass of nothingness,how ironic.
am i missing out that mch?

PLEASE!

2008-03-17T19:59:00.002+08:00

please please please please please!

Let me have the job,
i promise i'll be good this year.
i shall not feign innocence or
indulge in sex
or drink
or any other related debauchery cum underhand activities
a pubescent and rabble-rousing teen commits.

wholesome

2008-03-16T21:32:00.003+08:00

ok,went shopping with my mum, AGAIN
she's the most fickle minded person i ever met.
went around in circles
picked some nice stuffs for her
i bought some
lighter mood this time

p.s: hey, thanks for the treat =)
you know who you're.

stultifying dullness

2008-03-14T16:04:00.002+08:00

i was watching a tv show the other day
and it triggered an epiphany so brilliant
i barely had time to register the negative.
so, im over the angry phase of job hunting
afterall i should consider the alternative.

i formulated a diabolical plan for revenge.
very very very nasty.
im such a machiavellian bitch.
my sister is a devil incarnate.

*sly grin*

perpetual

2008-03-13T17:04:00.003+08:00

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor.

You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader.

Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways.

But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical.

With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you

In love: You are picky but passionate

To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

What's Your Dosha?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.

You think good luck is something you won't attain - you expect bad luck.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you are not too worried about finding someone right away. You're kind of laid-back in such matters.

Who's The True You?

Zzzz

2008-03-13T16:52:00.000+08:00

You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One!

Generally, you're very happy being a single woman.

And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem.

Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy.

You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man!

Do You Need a Man?

Crepe paper!

2008-03-12T13:34:00.002+08:00

WEEE!
highlight of my boring holiday,
my exam results.
yay, im soooo happy.
i cant stop smiling.
all the studying paid off =)
ok, i shall not gloat about it here.

p.s: 3.46

cranky

2008-03-10T20:23:00.003+08:00

cranky
cranky
cranky
cranky
cranky

p.s: im on a cranky strike, till i get a fucking job.

what's with all the bilingual in english and chinese shit.
for fuck's sake, why cant they learn english, instead of me
not getting a job because i cant speak chinese to an idiotic
moron who doesnt know how to speak the universal language,
English.(seriously, go and kill yourself if you dont know any
english in this era)
and come on, majority of the chinese hardly even speak chinese,
otherwise they wont be having campaigns to encourage people
to speak chinese.
and am i suppose to learn chinese so i get an equal opportunity
of getting the job as someone who can speak chinese?
and what do i have when im trying to buy shoes?
a chinese speaking lady whose English sucks and cant understand me.

~

2008-03-09T22:16:00.002+08:00

went shopping
didnt see anything to my liking
didnt get anything
stupid fucking waste of time.

been down lately.
nagging feeling, frustrating.
URGH.

GRRRRRR

2008-03-07T20:56:00.002+08:00

im fucking pissed right now.
fuck all the optimism i had.
fuck the whole "putting the universe into
equilibrium" shit.
fuck everything.
those having disgustingly cheery days,
with fluffy cotton candy in cloud 9 and
rainbows with leprechaun and a pot of gold,
go fuck yourself.

god is a sadist,
im trapped in this abysmal comedy of errors
and im playing the lead role
and im his personal joke on earth.
FUCK!
doesn't he have anybody else's life
to fuck it around?
why does he keep picking on me?
what the fuck is wrong with you?
call me a blasphemy, whatever.

p.s: im better off being a grumpy, grouchy bitch
that would bite off your head anytime.

p.p.s: *snigger* not a fucking chance, you dont.

s-h-i-t

2008-03-06T13:15:00.003+08:00

i knew it.

for every good thing that happened,
it would be countered by something bad.
gee, what's the whole idea.
i guess it's to keep the whole universe balanced,
share the luck and misery.

how selfish.

i quit my job cause they are wasting my precious time
which could be used to shop.
unfortunately, i'm broke.
now, i dont have a job.
rubbing salt into the wound.

but it's ok, im trying to be as optimistic as a plank of wood.
i get to sleep in.
i desperately need a nice looooong nap
in this wonderful rainy weather.
and stuff my self silly and become fat.

things

2008-03-05T20:09:00.001+08:00

finally,
got my dear baby back
=)

and finally, i got this song

p.s: somethings arent going as well as expected,
but whatever =)

...

2008-03-03T20:30:00.002+08:00

it was the sweetest thing
unfortunately, it was just a dream.

"do you have a boyfriend?"
"ya, he just doesnt know it yet."

ding dang dong

2008-03-02T12:55:00.002+08:00

watched midnight show yesterday,
technically today, with my family
at Vivo.
Fool's gold was quite funny.
went for a very very late supper around 2+am.

my life's pretty mundane now,
nothing to bitch about, nothing bugging me
(except public transport).
but im very much contented with the way it is
=)

wee

2008-03-01T08:28:00.000+08:00

ok, i already got a job!
starting monday, cant wait =)

enumeration of brain cells

2008-02-21T17:50:00.003+08:00

he is so adorable and disgusting,

paradoxical feline.

he just wants attention
and he is my study buddy, a colossal distraction

in fur form.

p.s: im just taking a break from studying,

a 4 hour long break.

p.p.s: exams start tomorrow, yay!

BOOOOM

2008-02-16T15:06:00.002+08:00

ok,
the wire to my laptop charger
burnt.
i got no laptop now,
cant use the internet,
cant online shop,
cant myspace.
i feel like shit,my whole life evolved
around the virtual world.
i might as well be dead.
fuck shit fuck shit fuck shit

maybe it's a sign to make me study.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

p.s: i'll be busy thinking of ways to kill myself now
p.p.s: that's easy i'll just bore myself to death studying

bye

V'day 08

2008-02-14T21:29:00.005+08:00

it was such an awesome valentine's day,

as awesome as it is commercialized.

weeeee!

with my two dear honey bunnies

who never fail to make me laugh.

(nooo, im not going to start a sappy and cheesy speech)

really enjoyed the company,

the breeze,

hmmmm

they know me so well, they both got me

a present which is of my favourite colour =)

haha,new fashion statement,

we were acting so idiotic

i got FAT thighs!

awwwwww, i love this picture the most =)

we look so sweet!

p.s: thanks to:

(alphabetically)

alyssa-who gave me a note just as i

alighted the bus, hahaha she finally found it in her bag.

ili-she gave me perfume which smells like Kenzo,

so nice! and the box is metallic pink, so cute =)

of course the time we spent on the ground being attacked

by huge ants

jennifer-who gave a sweet note + ferrero rocher YUM!

see soo- he gave toblerone, hahaha

siti- she gave me the cute sunflower which is pinkish-purple.

and chocolates! and of course her "ano"s hahahaha,the best gift

EVER!

and everybody else who wished me Happy valentine's day!

LATE-syaheedah's 18th

2008-02-14T20:29:00.004+08:00

it was nice experience eating at the middle eastern

restaurant.

overall,the day was nice.

ya,nice.

looooovvvvvveee

2008-02-08T09:51:00.000+08:00

1.Do you think you'll have a bf/gf for valentines day?
gf

2.Have you ever had a bf/gf during valentines day?
thankfully, YES

3.Will you like anyone on valentines day?
i have always liked that someone

4.Do you think valentines day is over-rated?
only if im out of love, yaa it is very commercialized

5.Whats the best thing you could get for valentines day?
something sweet and cute

6.Whats the best thing you HAVE gotten for valentines day?
just being with that someone is good enough
(ewww, so corny but im serious though )

7.Do you dress up for the day?
not to the extend of wearing pink or red from head to toe
or worse as a cupid

8.Do you wear more pink and red then usual?
eww, no

9.Do you hand out those little valentines that come in a box?
they do? how come i havent been getting one

10. Do you get those candy hearts?
nahh

11.Would it be cute if someone asked you out with the candy hearts?
only if the guy's cute

12.Have you ever started dating someone on valentines day?
nah, we were already dating

13.Have you ever broken up with someone on valentines day?
nah, i dont think so

14.Do you believe in love at first sight?
nah, lust at first sight

15.What type of flower would you like to get on this day?
white roses which wont wilt

16.Have you gotten flowers on this day before?
white roses and dried flowers alsooo
but cant remember if it's on valentine's day

17.Have you ever gotten a box of chocolates on this day?
yesss, it didnt exactly came in a box.
it came with cute stuffed toy

18.Would you dress up like cupid on valentines day?
nope, is this like role play during sex?

19.Would you kiss someone without being in a relationship with them on this day?
sure, if he is lucky

20.Would you ever go out with someone just on valentines day?
nope,that would be leading him on

21.Do you like single or group dates?
single

22.Will you flirt on this day?
eww, no one i know is worth the flirt

23.Have any plans for the day?
yeahhhh

24.Where will you be during the day?
in school

This or That

Stuffed Animals or Chocolates:
stuffed animals but im allergic
chocolates will finish

Roses or A Handmade Card:
roses, considering it will not wilt

A song dedicated to you or a poem written for you:
poem, it requires more effort

Balloons or Candy hearts:
balloons!

Love or Lust at first sight:
lust

Single or taken on this day:
unavailable =))

Cupcakes or Cookies:
i've been craving for cupcakes, miam miam!

Pink Hearts or Red Hearts:
red

A hug from a friend or a kiss from a player:
both can considering that the friend is cute and the player
is a good kisser

Truth or Dare:
truth, nobody will really know if you lie ;)

lucky bitch!

2008-02-07T14:17:00.000+08:00

everybody is just so caught up in their own lives.

wheezing pass it, not pausing for a second to open their eyes

and appreciate it.

if they open their eyes big enough, they'll be able to find

$50 on the ground!

HAHAHAHA!

it was left crumpled on the ground amongst the grass,

fluttering helplessly, waiting and pleading for

someone to pick it up and spend it =)

spent it on pizza, miam miam!

p.s: each one of us harbor deep hidden and convoluted stories that

may never escape the confines of our mind,

even if it is a game of truth or dare.

p.p.s: sometimes, not mentioning it would be believing that it didnt happen.

let that dumb mistake dissipate into thin air.

p.p.p.s: we tend to stereotype, as much as we like to believe ourselves

of not being guilty of this, we do judge people on how they look.

im over muttering all these cliches.

OH YA,

siti- 15 "ano"s

ili- 3 "ano"s

liyana- 2 "ano"s

=)))))))))))))))))

questions questions

2008-02-05T12:47:00.000+08:00

1.Do you like anyone?
Ermm, nobody in particular.
just infatuations

2. Are you flirty?
nah, too grumpy for that

3. Are you a player?
nah, but im sure one of the exes would beg to differ

4. Would you get back together with any of your ex's?
if i say yes, would it happen?
i doubt so, stop asking questions that requires delusional answers

5. Have you ever kissed anyone on your top friends?
you mean french kiss or just a peck?
im not big on showing my affections, unless they are cats

6. Do you want a valentine?
i already got one, and she's in my top friends =)

7. Have you slept over at the opposite sex's house?
tsk tsk, you know im not suppose to do that but yes

8. Do you prefer group dates or single ones?
neither, i prefer to date my relatives
*sarcasm*

9. Would you kiss light or makeout?
make love

10. Do you like cuddling up while watching a movie?
nah, i prefer spooning

11. Any plans for valentines day?
yes =)

12. What's the best valentines day present for a girl?
going down on her, hahaha

13. For a guy?
give him some head, ahahaha

14. Are you single or taken?
unavailable =)

p.s: tee hee hee, this survey was obviously answered by
someone who has overdosed on mangoes and gingko biloba,
which i didnt know are aphrodisiacs

p.p.s: purely joking...or not =)))))

exanimate

2008-02-04T19:13:00.000+08:00

that's how i feel now, exanimate.
it's as though a dementor just came up to
me and sucked out my soul leaving me dry.
only my dementor came in the form
of two lovers who are passionately in love
on a stupid bike.

their presence never fail to irk me.
ironically, i could ramble off about the
sociodynamics of two lovers on a bike,
giving a blow-by-blow commentary followed
by a perspicuous analysis of my feelings.

pffffffffffffffffttttttttttttttt

FUCK!

2008-01-31T17:23:00.000+08:00

life just love to fuck me
all the adversities thrown at me
like boulders.
they were all too fitting a soundtrack to go with
the dirge in my head.
god is sadistic, he is probably looking down
at me now with a sardonic grin.
satisfied with the mess he created,
ME.

my judgement seems to be clouded,
an injudicious decision
despite the nagging insinuations of my conscience.

abcdefg

2008-01-30T19:00:00.000+08:00

we sent off sherrianne today,

and i realized that im capable of emotion.

see!

whoever said im a cold heartless bitch is obviously wrong

piggybacks!

funny shit! i laugh everytime i see this =)

p.s: syaheedah's birthday this weekend, looking foward to meeting you pussies

yoghurt

2008-01-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

today's highlight: yoghurt eating cat

and best of all it's my cat

apparently fiffee loves blueberry yoghurt, like me!

that's the only human food he consumes,

he makes this gagging face, like

he stuck his paws down his throat whenever people

try to feed him human food. fussy pot

ya, that's my mundane life.

i need a major calamity to break this monotony

(the last time i said this, my cat died)

backlash

2008-01-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

"It's like entering another realm, a parallel universe to which she was used to. where girls were supposed to bitch, snap at any low-life who dared to rebut her and anybody beneath her was blocked out, ceased of their existence. Above all, casting aspersions on people who undermined her authority. A sly smile crept as she recalled the girl who switched school after she was ostracized and toppled off the social ladder.
"Tsk, that's what you deserve for even trying."
Now, everybody was nice. Too nice. Gritting teeths, clenched fist to resist the urge to admonish the supercillious imbecile. Her know-it-all-i'm always-right-and-you-are-wrong attitude grating on her thin nerves. Crude words were forming at the tip of her tongue and murder scenes replayed and rewind at every gory second. Of course, all they could see was her far away dazed look and her sweet smile that managed to beguile them and disguise her alter ego. "

Happy birthday dear brother, HASHRIE

2008-01-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

his birthday was actually on 22nd Jan
so this is for my pubescent and subversive brother
i hope you dont grow up to be such an imbecile,
considering the gene pool, it is pretty likely.
oh and and and i love it when you're so self-conscious
about your looks and WEIGHT?! it is a little
precocius, worrying about your beckoning mid-life
crisis at 11.
awww, love you loads :)

i have the fakest smile

he IS my brother, despite the GREAT difference in

our melanin production. no thanks to all those hours

under the sun chasing a stupid ball.

He actually bought sunblock and used some whitening product,

apparently it is not working.

he is so cautious, but not enough for fair skin.

haha, if this is a full-length picture, you'd notice him popping

his booooootayyyy

anywayyyy, just wanted to exhibit the

kind of love my cat and i share:

p.s: i loveeeeeeeeeeeee my cat, fiffee is the more docile

out of the two although figo is

the better looking one. seeeeeeee, im not as superficial as i look.

p.p.s: if only people were like cats, particularly guys

and and and!!!

ok done!

p.s: oh ya, uploaded more new pictures from Sherrianne's Birthday party =))

you and me, balls

2008-01-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

Figo's big day

his animal instint kicking in,

skittering sense of foreboding rampaging his cute body.

subsequently, proving his presentiment true.

he is soooooooooooooo cute, i wanna tear his cute little fluffy face

and pluck his cute little paws and eat them.

(i mean this in the most affectionate posibble way)

BEFORE:

i hope you guys can make out the spherical shapesAFTER:

HAHAHA, deflating balls. look at scissions and the stitches

Fiffee(male cat) was feeling so desolate when Figo was away,

look at his cute sad face

the cute little ass is convalescing now,

airing his bashed up ball to assuage the pain

Sherrianne's 18th at NUSS bar

2008-01-23T18:01:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th birthday Sherrianne! the last time this bunch got together was when we baked brownies at her house, haha ok who am i kidding, we werent the ones baking. we were watching movies and stuffing ourselves with pizza and all the high cholesterol junk, but im not complaining! thanks for inviting me to your awesome birthday party =) anyways it was great, the ambience was nice. on the rooftop the wind blowing through your hair the smell of BBQed food great company, laughters and silliness and the games and the congo lines hahaha,great

in the middle of crosswords
and we won first!

(thank goodness they didnt take pictures of me being fan

during Charades, that would be social suicide)

miam miam , ferrero rocher cake! lip smacking

praveena is sooo animated and comical =)))

and look at my FUCKING HUGE paunch

look at those huge, juicy prawns!

closed eyes -__-

early birds, we got good seats
eating
and eating
still eating when it's already dark
yummy yummy prawns

we finished eating the ferrero rocher cake, and these
two guys came along strumming their thang

she had to guess what was the present she got
she sniffed it...caress it

and, it turned out to be g-strings

i look like an IDIOT with a capital "I"
still looking like an idiot
the waiters kept refilling our glasses!

our glasses remained filled to the brim,

and i kept excusing myself to the toilet

cranberry juice was nice but mango was fantastic,favorite

the toilet was soooo nice and cute

omg, my calves are FAT

smooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooches

2008-01-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

im suffering from severe fatigue

to the extend where im not able to

express any emotion.

it would take a toll on my body.

i'm a blank, i could pass of as a

piece of wood.

on a happier a note,

(haha, im such a fucken contradiction;

just hate gloomy post,i'd rather tap on my

pent up angst. you would realize i did just that

if you proceed and stop reading all this rubbish im

writing inside the brackets)

french movies is soooooo

sweet & cute(at least the ones i've watched),

not the typical shit you get in some shitty

long-winded drama where the characters are going

around in circles using corny and cheesy dialogues.

p.s: GEE,for one frigging moment could you please

let your guard down and stop being so defensive and literally

bite everybody's ass off just to prove a freaking point, what happened

to "we are all entitled to our own opinions"

p.p.s: now's the perfect moment to use my all-time favorite sarcastic

line(i've never said this to anybody's face though...maybe),

"i'm not able to stick my head up my ass high enough to

see your perspective"

castration

2008-01-20T16:59:00.000+08:00

this week's hype was the mtf birthday party i went to
& figo, my dear cat, getting castrated.

i've yet to get a nice picture of his hollow scrotum with all
the bloodiness and stitches.
i think he is suffering a temporary memory relapse.
he has been wandering around the house testicles-less,
sniffing everything and ignoring everybody.
maybe, it is his way of saying "i hate you bitches for removing
my balls which are going to end up being pounded to powder and
used as fertilizer, im not talking to you anymore".
im sorry my dear cute fluffly little kitty cat!
ah well, he is a cat with a minimum memory of 3 days!
so, in 3 days time he will probably forget he was born with any
testicles.
furthermore, my sweet sweet fiffee, my other male cat, will
not feel threatened or intimidated by figo's huge balls.

hmph, then i wont get to tickle figo's huge balls anymore,
im going to miss doing that.
that's the only action im getting these days.

p.s: by the way, im not trying to act like im super smart or anything
but is it me or guys are often turned off/intimidated/threatened when ever
i answer them that im in Biomed?

p.p.s: it is true, this answer usually means the end of conversation
and there is no point pursuing any form of relationship,
geez i cant help that im smarter than you

p.p.p.s: im crashing that stupid glass ceiling and ricoochet against it!

p.p.p.p.s: dont get ahead of yourself bitch, tsk sk tsk

lying to forget

2008-01-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

"This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name
Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone
Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs
But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath
When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go"

http://www.best-love-poems.com/poems.php?id=710273

im just joking around

2008-01-15T22:31:00.000+08:00

the first question totally caught my attention!
thanks diana <3

1. What would you do if your ex justshowed up at your house right now?
my answer would be very long and detailed, could be salacious too,
so you can skip this answer if you're lazy too read.
first, i'd asking "what the fuck are you doing here?
where's your underdeveloped hoochie of a cousin?
have you guys committed incess?"
if answer is yes, "fuck off( followed by a string of abusives)"
then, maybe after that i'd burn his bike
if answer is no, i'd still do the same thing cause i know he is
fucking lying.
oh ya, before that, i'd probably ask why the fuck he did what he did.
then have hot sex, thennnnnnn i'll murder him in the most discreet posibble way.

hahaha, of course i wouldnt do all this *duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2. What describes your relationship status?
judging from the preveious answer, psycho ex

3. Where are you?
home

4. What's the last TV show you've seen?
gossip girl

6. What is your favorite animal?
felines
and probably chipmunks too!

7. Who have you thought about most today?
my cat

8. Do you carve pumpkins every year?
YAAA, and then my gfs and i dress like sluts, since it's halloween,
we're allowed to

9. Color of your underwear?
baby blue

10. Color of your shirt?
red

12. Who's on speed dial?
none

13. Honestly, what would you rather be doing right now?
online shopping

14. What's your favorite season?
those windy days where your hair blows nicely with
a hint of sunshine

16. Are you a bad influence?
im the sweetest girl you will ever meet =)

19. Would you do anything for someone else?
no, that's just stupid(contradiction to answer above)

20. Have you ever been called a bitch?
yes,
to be more specific "guava bitch"(still contradicting)

21. Have you ever eaten pizza with sourcream?
ewww no, it sourcream tastes like cum, i think

24. How big is your room?
enough to occupy a super single bed, a bunk bed and
a wardrobe and have 2meters of walking space

25. Do you ever think people hate you for filling these things out?
they actually read this things?

26. Does your best friend have a myspace?
i have a bestfriend?
wow, this things really make me open my eyes

27. Whose page did you visit last?
some shopping page on livejournal

28. Last time you went out to dinner?
ermm, new year?

29. Who is your favorite character from friends?
joey, cause he brings stupid to a whole new level

31. Do you have your senior yearbook?
that i'd love to burn

32. Do you want to kiss anyone right now?
nah, my breath kinda stinks now

33. Do you have one or more N*sync CD's?
hahahaha, are you kidding me, i got
an entire collection, you should see my room,
i got their faces on wallpaper

34. What did you do last night?
i do not remember trivial matters,
especially ones that involve me pigging out

35. Favorite TV shows?
GOSSIP GIRL! HEROES! dont get me started,
btw local television suck

36. What's your name spelled backwards?
anayil

37. Do you have a song by KellyClarkson in your itunes library?
no

38. iPod or Zune?
iPod

39. Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
nah

40. How do you feel about reality shows?
yaaa, that's when people are so bitchy and conniving

41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
they are not trashy

43. What's the last thing you bought?
cropped cardigan from online shopping,
sheesh i got to break this habit

45. Whats in your CD player right now?
i dont even have CDs, ever heard of limewire

46. What's your favorite movie?
mean girls

47. What's another favorite movie?
she's the man cause channing tatum is hot

48. Do you believe everyone has asoulmate?
yes, like pigs would fly

49. Can you sing?want to judge?
like a frog

50. Do you play any instruments?
yes, my tummy,
just give me 2 spoons

51. Have you ever been to another country?
duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

54. Have you ever been to South Americaor Africa?
no

55. Do you know how to knit?
shit no, it sounds so geriatric

56. What do you want to eat right now?
blueberry muffins
the chocolate with that strawberry paste inside,miam miam
2 scoops of cookies & cream topped with chocolate syrup
and raisins

58. What are you doing right nowbesides this survey?
petting my cat

60. Baskin Robbins or Cold Stone?
....

61. Math or English?
english

62. Facebook or MySpace?
none

63. G-rated or R-rated movies?
im fine with anything, unless the r-rated movies
start looking like hardcore porn

64. Rather fly across the states ordrive?
not a roadtrip type of girl

65. Batman, Spider man, Superman, Hulk,or Silver Surfer?
Claire Bennet from Heroes

66. What's your favorite Disney movie?
Ones which dont involve their actors/actress
taking naked pictures of themselves

67. What Cell Phone Service do youhave?
starhub

68. How many beers get you drunk?
i've never gotten drunk

69. Mood?
lazzzzzzzzzzzzy

happy new year

2008-01-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2008!

i look like a frigging idiot. i need a new word for idiot

awwww
she's pissed
omg,i got a paunch!

.........

crammed photobooth

act cute or what

you aint macking with my bitch

typical jia en face, never fail to do it.

the worse, babe i couldnt edit it to make you look

errrmmm, presentable.

why?
why do you keep touching your mouth...or teeth?
im happy, i got nice lashes, hahahahahahahaha

ate at plaza singapura

went vivo

surprisingly wasnt crowded

the fireworks i saw was shit

awesome time overall

X'mas with the bitches!

2007-12-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

wee! x'mas is awesome. ordered pizza, watched bitchy movies.

there were candles to set the ambience, and x'mas tree(with no star!).

the best thing, i only spent $15, haha, considering that im broke.

fyi: i suck at taking pictures, cause somebody's face was bound to get cut off.

take 1take 2
finally!

woozy little suzie
seance-calling all the spirits

elegance in a santa hat

she was getting horny, poured wax on herself-

sadomasochism. the way into her knickers

furball
not cute

"im hotter than the tree"
"lets see you pop that bootay"
"i know im way cooler than you"
ok...........................................
we are so lame

i look asleep

pizza

"whose been naughty this year"

and she thought i couldnt reach the tip of her short tree,

which by the way do not have a star
too hot to touch
typical jia en face

p.s: next, new year!

A7B3 X'mas BBQ

2007-12-21T23:43:00.001+08:00

it was great
except it rained when the BBQ was about to kick off
had so much fun
played lame games
*ting-a-ling-a-ling*
(note: siti if i hated you,i'd post that video;b-l-a-c-k-m-a-i-l)
played with fire cracker,smoked the whole roof
and of course, exchange presents!

weee,let's get it started yo!
don't be daft, we didnt drink

and chocolates and candy canes! and toasted marshmellows
still working on it
moonlight
fucking awesome shit pool
it's so blooooooody huge
jingle bell rocks!

for the thousandth time

2007-12-20T19:43:00.000+08:00

alright, this wouldnt be the first
post where im going to rant away about
how much i hate family gatherings.
it usually occurs before or after the occasion.
apparently today, i picked after.

i find holidays rather redundant
where individuals are FORCED to make
awkward conversations and embarassing revelations.
I'm neither close to my maternal or paternal relatives.
So out of the 365 days, tell me why the hell im suppose
to waste a special holiday with a bunch of people i hardly
spend my daily life with. suddenly, we have to act all
jolly and what-not as though we've been through each others
vicissitudes of life.
and suddenly, they are concerned about my well-being whatever shit.
where the hell have you been?

so i shy away from aunties and some uncles who are so busybody,
and little toddlers who talk too much
or potential conversation disasters that usually involves the
aforementioned categories.

seriously, they are more of a stranger compared to any friend
you want me to name right now.
oh well, maybe it's just my relatives.
or me.
and this torture continues in the subsequent years.

p.s:and what the hell, iv've to go all the way to freaking malaysia,
crammed in my motherfucking OWN car like canned sardines for a
bloody engagement ceremony. my bloody thrill and excitement in life cease
to amaze me. god hates me so bloody much

p.p.s: and i've hardly had a conversation with this cousin since i started puberty
and i dont even bloody hell know who his potential fiancee is,
wow suddenly im shipped to this stupid ceremony and have to wear stupid
malay costume, sweltering like a pig and pretend like im happy to be there.

are we done here?

2007-12-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for this year to end
cause it took off with a rocky start and
the excitement is tappering off,
a day boring than the preceding day.

probably spending the New Year with
a bloody good looking date-turned-diabolic-feeding
on other's expense and humiliation for own fame
might have jinxed the whole year.
i still hate you.
and im impervious to your good looks or glib tongue.
you're going to fucking regret you hit on me or summed up
the courage to ask me out.
if i had it my way and the time to entertain low-life
losers like you, i'd make your life a living hell
and you would wish you were dead.
im the best thing you will never fucking have.

i hate it
i hate to admit it
even without his presence
just someone mentioning his stupid one syllabled
name to "warn" his presence made my heart skip.
and it's a bloody fucking trick where people
just want to see my stunned expression.
what do you think it means?

p.s:am i going to be forever haunted by his stupid name,
i was born for far better achivements

POP!

2007-12-18T19:39:00.000+08:00

Your French Name is:

Isabelle Perrault

What's Your French Name?

You Are 36% Nerdy

You're a little nerdy, but no one would ever call you a nerd.

You sometimes get into nerdy things, but only after they've become a part of mainstream culture.

How Nerdy Are You?

Sagittarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

Your playful nature brings out the happy inner-child in dates

You're willing to take risks in love... and reap the rewards

You've got a killer sense of humor that gets talking with any hottie you meet

Your negative traits:

Sometimes your sarcasm comes off as biting and abrasive

You can be brutally honest, tactless, and truthful even when it hurts

You're such a free spirit that you find it hard to commit to one person

Your ideal partner:

Someone high energy who will pick up and out with you whenever

Is creative and fun - thinking of new adventures for the two of you

Is bold... and not afraid to tell you "I love you" early on

Your dating style:

Unpredictable. You never know how the night is going to end up.

Your seduction style:

Daring. You're always pushing to try something new in the bedroom.

Full of imagination. You've always got a new fantasy you're dying to try.

Spiritually driven. Sex for you can be an other-worldly act.

Tips for the future:

Realize that while freedom is great - sometimes a stable relationship is better.

It's not all about you. Focus on your partner's needs every once and a while.

Make up your mind about your partner, and stick to it. Your fickle will ruin things otherwise.

Best color to attract mate: Purple

Best day for a date: Thursday

What's Your Love Profile?

bulletins

2007-12-18T18:45:00.000+08:00

i just have to let it out
i dont mean to be petty
but i know i am

on myspace, these crazy bitches
(shall not point my finger)
keep posting bulletins for picture comments.
it's bodering on begging and it annoys
the shit out of me.

sheesh, if they are as hot as they claim
themselves to be in their profiles, they wouldnt
need to resort to such publicity.
they sound so conceited and thinking that they are all
that, yet they commit such social suicide.
so needy,
it's like they NEED people to compliment
their fake beauty (ie: fake lashes, 2 coats of concealer and
of course multiple clicks in Photoshop) every second of the day.
the least you could do is be discreet about fishing for compliments.

furthermore their 28756238472938109715098 online friends
wouldnt even notice they are dead if they actually have to post 2983629846298
bulletin to "remind" others about their stupid picture

come on, get over yourself

p.s: no, it's not pot calling the kettle black ok. i havent post any bulletins nor
have i worn fake lashes...yet

reduced to tears from boredome

2007-12-16T17:37:00.000+08:00

i stole this from diana's entry =)

QUIZ I

1) LOVE IS IN THE AIR?
Hell no

2) WHO IS THAT PERSON?
No one, duh

3) DO YOU THINK LOVE HURTS?
Yes, therefore you got to be the first
to hurt the other party

4) DO YOU THINK THAT YOU EVER HURT
SOMEONE?
YES, feaking big time. c'mon! ask me if i regret it

5) & WHY?
Clingy, i hate clingy and needy and weepy boys.
if i wanted one, i would have gotten myself pregnant
with a baby boy and call him Ralph

6) WHAT KIND OF QUALITIES MUST THAT
GUY/GIRL HAVE IN ORDER TO ATTRACT YOU?
Interesting, i hate monotony

5) LIKE TO LISTEN TO LOVE SONGS?
No, it's depressing

7) HAVE YOU ACHIEVE YOUR GOAL THIS
YEAR?
Pretty much

8) NEW YEAR COMING,SO WHAT'S YOUR GOAL
FOR YEAR 2008?
Find a rich guy to gold dig,
he must be hot though

9) WOULD YOU EVER THINK WHAT YOU
WISHED FOR WILL COME TRUE?
If it was reasonable considering the circumstances

10) WHAT ARE YOUR INTEREST?
Shopping,
making out not so much

11) DO YOU LOVE EXERCISING?
I hate to sweat

12) BEST PLACE TO BE PROPOSE AT?
We will come to that when im in love

13) ARE YOUR WEDDING BELLS RINGING YET?
Shit, no

14) WHERE WOULD YOUR WEDDING BE HELD?
What's with all this wedding shit

15) WHO DO YOU THINK UR BRIDE/GROOM?
Not every girl is obsessed about getting married
and ending up a housewife with screaming babies
stradling them.
cause seriously, that's the only straddling you're getting ; )
(brush up your sex ed if you dont get it)

16) WHAT'S YOUR HABIT?
Chaping my lips

17) WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE CARTOON
CHARACTER?
Betty boop

18) DO YOU LIKE SOFT TOYS?
Allergies

19) ARE KIDS IRRITATING?
YES

20) WHAT'S THE LAST BEVERAGE YOU HAD?
Plain water

21) WHAT'S THE LAST FOOD YOU HAD?
Vanilla with chocolate chips with colourful sprinkles
and rasisins

22) WHO DO YOU SLEEP WITH LAST NIGHT?
My cat

23) WHEN'S YOUR BIRTHDAY?
27 nov

24) WHAT PRESENTS DO YOU RECIEVE ON
YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Too many to mention (i'm being sarcastic)

25) ANYONE'S BIRTHDAY COMING UP?
Nazrul, hahah it's today

26) ARE YOU ANGRY AT SOMEONE/SOMETHING?
Very

27) WHEN YOUR ANGRY,WHAT DO YOU DO?
Throw things

28) ARE YOU MISSING SOMEONE?
Define miss

29) WHO IS HE/SHE?
Who?

30) DO YOU NEED TO WEAR SPECTACLES?
Yes, it makes me look smart

31) WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN
SCHOOL?
Erm, got to be HPI and BMIC

32) WHAT SUBJECTS ARE YOU GOOD AT?
Im not consistent

33) WHAT SUBJECT HAVE YOU REGRETTED
LEARNING?
None, really.

34) WHAT LANGUAGE ARE YOU GOOD AT?
English

35) WHAT LANGUAGES DO YOU WISH TO
LEARN?
Latin

36) DO YOU DO HOUSE CHORES?
Sorta

37) HAVE YOU BATHE YET?
Duh

38) WHAT ANIMALS DO YOU PREFER?
CATS!

39) YOU'RE ALWAYS ASSOCIATED WITH WHAT
ANIMALS/BIRDS?
Cats, i suppose

40) DO YOU WISH TO BE FAMOUS?
For the good things, sure.
not crazy for fame though
keep it low key
life's too short to make it a
popularity contest

41) WHO DO YOU WISH TO GET MARRIED
WITH? (ONLY CELEBRITIES)
Nah, cause then...it would make me famous

42) ARE YOU GAY/LESBIAN?
In a dilemma really

43) WHICH GENDER DO YOU WISH YOU ARE?
Still in a dilemma but a pussy is fine

44) HAVE YOU EVER THINK TO CHANGE YOUR
GENDER?
Nah, but if gives me bigger tits, why not

45) ARE YOU SEXIST?
Kinda

46) ARE YOU RACIST?
Erm

47) DO YOU HAVE A PERFECT BODY?
Shit no

QUIZ II

1. Are you a Bitch?
Depends on the clique,
full-frontal bitch if you're gonna make me hate you

2. Are you tall?
Nah, short

4 . In your pajamas?
Nope, i wear flannel gowns
*sarcastic

5. Left handed?
Right-handed

LAST :

1. Friend you saw:
Ili and Siti

2. Talked to on the phone:
Some unknown number

3. Person to text you:
Jia en

4. Was today better than yesterday:
Kinda the same

FAVORITE :

1. Number:
2

2. Color:
Purple and black

3. Food:
Ermm, blueberry yoghurt

4. Place:
Toilet

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did
this morning when you got up?
A: Eat ice cream

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: Yes, my fats

Q: What's the last movie you watched
in theaters?
A: Ermmmmmmmm

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: School

Q: Do you smile often?
A: No, i dont waste my strength on such mundane things

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: No

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Seriously, i dont think so

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: Bedroom

Q: Why did you sleep there?
A: Cause there's a bed

Q : What was your last thought before
going to sleep last night?
A: Tissue paper

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: My sister eating the last cup of ice cream and her fart

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: My heart, HAHAH, so corny

TEN EMOTIONS

1. Are you missing someone right now?:
- Didnt you already ask this

2. Are you happy?:
- Pleased

3. Are you sad?:
- No if i dont think about it

4 . Are you bored?:
- To tears

5. Are you excited?:
- Nah,waste of energy

7. Are you single?:
- Yes

8. Are you tired?:
- Yes

10. Do you have a crush on someone
right now?:
- Nah

QUIZ III

First word/phrase that came out of
your mouth this morning?
Spongebob

Mom or Dad. Who do you like better?
Mom

Mom or Dad. Who is more annoying?
Errr

When do you usually sleep?
3am...depends if my sighness starts acting up

How tall would you like to be?
Tall enough to offset my weight

When you are using the computer, where
do you place your feet?
On my bed

Do you brush your teeth?
Duh, i dont wish for people to think something
died in my mouth

Have you thought of dieting recently?
Ermm

Do you like to wear white tees in
the summer?
Sure,if it doesnt make me look fat

What kind of people do you dislike?
Fakes

Do you like people easily?
Hell no, if so i'd have hobos living in my house

Day or Night?
Errr

When do you want to get married?
A decade later

If you can go back to the past,
where and when would you choose to go?
When i was 15, secondary 3
everything was perfect, for me at least

Have you ever hit someone's chin?
By accident of purposely?

Where are all your friends?
Mars

What radio channel do you like
listening to?
98.7fm occassionally

On Valentine's Day, would u go and
buy chocolate for your friends?
Why? so we can grow fat together

When you see your bf/gf hugging
another girl/guy, what would you do?
Join the group hug
and discreetly pinch his balls

Someone swears at you, what would
you do?
Right back him/her

When you get into a fight with a
friend, who says "Sorry" first?
Who cares

Where would you go for countdown
on New Year's Eve?
Still planning

Has anyone ever told you that you
look like someone?
I think

XOXO your worst nigthmare

2007-12-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

i feel like i've been incarcerated,
i need to be emancipated!

stuffing my self with junk that
are going to cause me kilos.
i had ice cream and chocoloates
for breakfast, lunch and dinner
for the past 4 days.
who's the crazy fool who bought THREE tubs of
ice cream within TWO days.
and a box of ferrero rocher.(however you spell it,
how ironic, been stuffing myself with it and not notice
the golden wrappers-gluttony i tell you!)
blame christmas, all the sweet treats are so cheap.

then, when i cant fit in my cute lil tees
anymore that is when i panic.
and im going to look like a
puffer fish when i wear my tankini.
and i feel so ugly, i dont feel like leaving the house.
which would make the whole concept of incarceration
not so bad after all.

i love food!

but, seeing this on the internet, made me feel better

cause not everybody has to be stick thin to be...appealing.

not some skinny,scrawny bitch with no tits to be proud of.

BEHOLD!

it's jennifer love hewitt

(just one of my i-feel-so-fat moments or phase, bear with me)

lame-o

2007-12-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

1. Where were you 1 hour ago?
bowling alley

2. Who will be your next kiss?
chace crawford

3. What are you most excited about right now?
holidays!

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
nope

5. When was the last time you went out of the state?
i don't live in the states

6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
nope, but i just watched Bratz yesterday on the computer.
bitchy shit

8. How do you describe what you are wearing right now?
shorts, tank top, pullover

9. What was your last purchase?
wetseal tees!

10. Last food you ate?
fish & chips

11. Last person you talked to on the phone?
gannice

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
nope, i dont want to talk about it

13. Do you have a pet?
2 cats

14. What's the last sporting event you watched?
i watched people bowl just now, does that count?

15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
in his bed

16. What is the last thing you purchased online?
wetseal tees!

17. When was the last time you laughed?
1 hour ago(and still counting)

18. What's one thing you really want right now?
a good fuck

19. Do you miss anyone?
yes, very much

20. Last play you saw?
i dont watch plays

21. What are your plans for the day?
movie marathon

22. Who did you hang out with last night?
my brother slept with me on my bed through out the night

23. Ever go to a camp?
the one with tents, 4 years ago

24. Were you an honor roll student in school?
ermm i get straight As for Os =)
ok, except for core geography

25. What do you know about the future?
old maid

26. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
yes, perfume

27. Where are your best friends located?
your bestfriends fail you

28. Do you have a tan?
dont intend to

29. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
refer to answer for question 25

30. Last person who made you cry?
im a strong ass kicking bitch!

31. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
just the ears

32. Listening to?
rain drops

33. What room are you in?
bed room

34. What happened in your dreams last night?
i tend to forget my dreams

35. Where is your dad?
next room

36. What is your mood?
bored stiff

37. Are you someone’s best friend?
nooooo, im their fuck buddy

38. Wish you could live like the movie Click?
nope, i want to live like tv show Heroes!

39. Do you love anyone?
i dont know anymore

40. What is one thing you hate?
morons

41.How old will you be in 10 months?
damn, still 17,but not after a few more months

42. Do you think you'll be married by then?
yes, to my cat

43. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
new year!

44. Who was the last person you called?
i dont like to call

45. Who was the last person to call you?
fucking UGLY dumb ass freak who stole my number from
the waiting list at the bowling alley, fucken LOW

46. Do you prefer to call or text?
neither, i love letters

47. Do you have any pets?
im not stupid, you dont have to repeat your questions

48. What were you doing at 12am last night?
masturbating, sleep DUH~

49. Are your parents married/divorced/separated?
Married

50. When is the last time you saw your sister?
unfortunately, now

51. What happened at 10:00 am?
the end of term test!

52. How many states have you lived in?
is singapore even a state

53. How many cities/towns have you lived in?
1

54. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
socks on cold days
bare feet at the beach
shoes when im kicking your ass

55. Are you a social person?
not really, i tend to hate people because of their face

56. What was the last thing you ate?
im not stupid, must i repeat myself

57. What is your favorite ice-cream?
ben & jerry's cookie dough, yummmm

58. What is your favorite dessert?
blueberry cheesecake
blueberry pie
blueberry waffle
you get my drift ;D

59. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwiches?
i dont eat peanut butter
and here we dont call it jelly,
we call it jam!

60. Do you like coffee?
nope

61. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
not enough to bed wet

62. What do you drink in the morning?
iced plain water

63. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
alone, im agressive in bed

64. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
everywhere

65. Do you know how to play poker?
i suck

66. Do you like to cuddle?
yes, alot

67. Have you ever been to Canada?
nope

68. Do you eat out or at home more often?
take outs

69. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
nope, that's cause im special!

70. Do you speak any other language?
french, une petite

71. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
i wish

72. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
pool, the water is cleaner even if someone pee in it

73. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
window please

74. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
i dont have car license,
even so i would drive auto

75. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
clothes!

76. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
nope

77. What is your favorite TV show?
Heroes

78. Can you roll your tongue?
yes

79. Who is the funniest person you know?
nah, cant come up with anybody

80. Any stuffed animals?
nope, allergies

81. What did you do 30 minutes ago?
answered 80 questions

82. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
nope

83. What is the color of your bedroom walls?
purple!

84. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
no

85. Do you sleep with your door opened or closed?
closed

86. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of killer Bee's?
would i be killed by the bear?

87. Do you flirt a lot?
nope, unless im in a relationship.
and i dont flirt with the person im in a relationship with =)

tsk tsk tsk

2007-12-11T17:53:00.000+08:00

You Were Naughty This Year

You Were 70% Naughty, 30% Nice

You may not have been good this year...
But you sure had a really good time.
And nothing from Santa could top that!

Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?

Your Love Is Represented By a Pink Rose

You see love as something that should be light, fun, and whimsical.

People fall in love with you easily. And you tend to fall out of love easily!

You express your love through attention and shared experiences. You love people more than they realize.

What Rose Represents Your Love?

another time

2007-12-10T14:44:00.000+08:00

cause you know you could never
feel that way again

tv-shows

2007-12-09T16:39:00.000+08:00

heroes season 2 is over with only 11 episodes

due to the writer's strike.

to those who have been living under a rock

or too conceited thinking the world evolves

around them, time to flip through the papers.

at least gossip girl is still on,

feed me a dose of weekly bitching

and utterly hot guys!

they make me salivate, yum!

current fascination,

CHACE CRAWFORD

he is much hotter than channing tatum,

but channing tatum has nice jaws.

p.s: nope, im not turning into one of those fanatics,

he is just so hot that im kind enough to share his hotness

with anybody reading this entry.

p.p.s: watch your saliva =)

xoxo

liyana!

migraines

2007-12-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

been having migraines
not a helping factor when im trying to study
i feel so stupid
stupid stupid stupid stupid
the pulsating in my temples
it's gnawing my brain
and it made me stupid
then im going to grow up
and be a bimbo and speak stupid english
peppered with grammatical errors that even
a monkey cant understand.

even the monkey in the news is smarter than me.
it takes a monkey to have good memory.
then i want to be a monkey.

Happy birthday ILI

2007-11-30T23:20:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILI!

picture credit to: LIYANA(haha, that happens to be me!)

p.s: i seem to see a pattern here, all the awewsome people are born in November!

weeeeeeeeee =)

happy birthday LIYANA!

2007-11-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

HELLOO! it's my birthday!

hahaha,this is what my sweet bitches did.

and and and Jia en was the first to wish me!

AWWWW

i think they were trying to do something as sweet as

ILI and SITI's gift for me ; )

ARENT ILI and SITI SWEEEET!

they baked this speacially for me =)

thanks you guys, much appreaciated!

it's soooo pretty i didnt want to eat it

yummmmy! im sooooo happy, hahahaha =)

yes, i ate it

my birthday was soo awesome!

spent the day with my friends, i felt so loved!

haha, so i skipped my french tutorial.(omg!)

went to screw jia en's teeth

went over my house

went downtown

played HUGE poker cards(im not kidding you!)

acted silly

totally didnt feel 17

hahaha, ate sakura

stuff myself to death-almost

think im still craving for the food

anyways, jia en wanted to surprise me

but it backfired

cause she cant keep secrets

and im sharp as a fox, i know when

something's amiss

hahaha

awesome,awesome,awesome day! =)

p.s: thanks to those who wished me, thanks for remembering really

( guess the myspace birthday reminder helps, tsk tsk tsk)

p.p.s: and to those who didnt, haha, it didnt make any difference

p.p.p.s: it's a cliche, but i wish my birthday was everyday

happy 17th birthday jia en!

2007-11-18T09:45:00.000+08:00

she talk too much

two goons figuring their way around each other
jia en: hmmm, just cause she got tits

Fatin: Liyana! you love me nudging your chest right?!
oooo, she got squinty eyes than mine!
retards, remove your tongue where it's not wanted
she loves to talk
babe, you lost me

OMFG, with great age come great cups
ohh please, you flatter me
rawr baby!
jia en's awesome tattoo!
stumpy legs of mine

Liyana: BITCH, you thought i wouldnt notice your slimey

arms around herwhen it's suppose to clench my ass.
You're not getting any tonight missy!

Jia en: bloody hell, i have to endure

this bitch's elbow up my pits.

wow, why dont you just take the picture

with lens cap on

Le sigh, if only he was here,
i could BBQ his dick over the lit candle.

Liyana:ohhhhhh babbbbyyyy, you turn me on

Jia en: Get that camera out of my face, im

trying to please my woman here.

ok, tickle spot! protect my miniscule boobs first.

not risking them getting flatten by

wringly thrushing arms.

yah, whatever jia en
honey, you cant make them bigger.
it doesnt work that way
pouty goldfishes

again, talking too much.

maybe, she just likes her mouth like that.

huh?

seriously?!
are you think what im thinking B1?

i think i am B2!

DOINK!

p.s: bictches, dont take it to heart ok ;D

just fucking around.

p.p.s: and no, other people reading this, we are not horny

or sexually deprived(term used loosely).

ennui ennui ennui

2007-11-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

I'm must be bored

You Would Not Pick Your Boyfriend Again!

When you and your boyfriend first met, things were different.

And now that the initial chemistry has worn off, you're finding that he's not right for you.

As much as it hurts, you know that you need to let him go - and find someone worthy of your love.

The good news is, you can be happier. You just have to make it happen.

Would You Pick Him Again?

p.s: i dont need multiple orgasms to be happy, I AM HAPPY!

URGH

You Are an Old Soul

You are an experienced soul who appreciates tradition.

Mellow and wise, you like to be with others but also to be alone.

Down to earth, you are sensible and impatient.

A creature of habit, it takes you a while to warm up to new people.

You hate injustice, and you're very protective of family and friends

A bit demanding, you expect proper behavior from others.

Extremely independent you don't mind living or being alone.

But when you find love, you tend to want marriage right away.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

p.s: this is BULLSHIT, i dont intend to get married any time soon.

je suis celibatre!

You're a Part Time Maneater

While you're not a black widow, you've definitely left a few guys feeling used and abused.

You're only out for fun, but sometimes you get a little carried away with your flirting.

Cute guys tend to make you lose control. You really can't help it!

You're a good girl at heart... you just can't help but let your bad girl side out sometimes!

Are You a Maneater?

p.s: BAD KARMA is written all over my future

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 60% Good and 40% Bad

Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.

But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

p.s: I KNOW! if only people would believe this things, i'll surely get my way ;D

p.p.s: i've a lab report due on monday and im doing this shit

I didn't change, you did!

2007-11-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

How much u have changed in 6 years?

Six years ago:
1.) How old were you?

2.) Where did you go to school?
Elias Park Pri

3) Where did you work?
(please refer to question 3)

4.) Where did you live?
Pasir Ris

5.) Where did you hang out?
Nowhere

6.) Did you wear glasses?
Yes!

7.) Who was your best friend?
Too stupid to mention

8.) How many tattoos did you have?
None,does birth mark count?

9.) How many piercing did you have?
2

10.) What car did you drive?
(refer to question 1)

11.) Had you been to a real party?
Sadly, no.

12.) Had You had your heart broken?
Nope, strong as steeel baby!

13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?
Single

Three years ago:
1.) How old were you?
14

2.) Where did you go to school?
Coral Secondary School

3.) Where did you work?
(refer to question 2)

4.) Where did you live?
Pasir Ris, but we moved TWO blocks from
aforementioned zipcode .

5.) Where did you hang out?
White Sand, Downtown

6.) Did you wear glasses?
Yes and no,does contact lenses count?

7.) Who were your best friend(s):
I don't do bestfriends

8.) How many tattoos did you have?
Zilch

9.) How many piercing did you have?
3

10) What car did you drive?
Ask me this again in 3-5 years time ;D

11) Had your heart broken?
Yes

12.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorce:
Single, just frivolous dating

Today:
1.) How old are you?
17 on 27November1990

2.) Where do you work?
Still schooling

3.) Where do you live?
Pasir Ris

4.) Do you wear glasses?
Hardly, contacts baby

5) Who is your best friend(s)?
You can't count on bestfriends.

6.) Do you talk to your old friends?
How old is old?
Secondary school yes, just the bitchy ones.
Primary school nope, they got too skanky.

7.) How many piercing do you have?
2

8.) How many tattoos?
Nada

9.) What kind of car do you have?
Ask again in 5 years time!

10.) Has your heart been broken?
Too many times

11.)Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?
Yes, have been for 1 year+ now,damn it!
(And still counting)

maragrita

2007-11-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

weeeeee! and it hasnt even kicked in yet.nooooo,we weren't drunk

6 hours

2007-10-31T19:17:00.000+08:00

6 hours of waiting...

....

2007-10-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

that was nice

shocker

2007-10-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

ah,there's a shocker
i got handcuffs for a father
and i mean this in the least kinky
posibble way.
i hope you dont get a heart attack when
you find out im turning 17,
have breasts,
menstruating monthly etc

bottomline:im a teenager not a 4 year old with pig tails.

shit

2007-10-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

boo
this sucks
i sound like a typical teenage screw up
or got screwed more like it

conversation's over if you're
just going to forbid me without hearing
me out.

p.s: i want what i want and i want it now damn it

anti-377A

2007-10-24T11:08:00.000+08:00

i think that sex between men should not be made illegal.
just because our society is conservative and narrow-minded,
it doesn't have to affect other people's happiness or orgasms.
and what right do we have to actually control the
gender of other people.
how can they not freely and legally have sex with their partners
when the others have the pleasure of doing so just because
their spouses are of opposite gender.
we can make love all day like bunnies but just cause they're gay
they have to die a virgin.

singaporeans should really widen their perspective and stop
being so stereotypical and conventional.
at the same time, they should not be so selfish,
why are they stopping them from pursuing their own happiness.
(is it cause they have satisfactory sex with their spouses and have to
fake an orgasm every night, that they dont want others to enjoy sex)
aren't we being sexist here?

furthermore, there are so many other sinful acts that have been
openly displayed by blasphemies.
say, having sex in public places, i believe no religion actually condone
such repugnant act.
but why is section 377A making such a controversy?
and why is having sex between similar gender shameful?
is it more shameful than having sex in public?

just cause it's illegal doesnt mean it's going to
stop men from having sex with each other.
everybody have urges.

p.s: JK Rowling just revealed that dumbledore is gay.
so what are the singapreans going to do?
burn the books?
stop their children from reading it?
ban the movie?

hot french fry

2007-10-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

salut!

OMGG
my french teacher is hot
his accent is sexy
damn charming
ll est beau

au revoir!

shopping ahoy!

2007-10-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

hahaha
ok i feel so pampered
my toe nails and finger nails are all french manicured
shopped like crazy with my crazy bitch
(and i still think i need another dosage of shopping!)

p.s:i shall not brag further about my oh-so wonderful
yet suerficial & materialistic life!

p.p.s:awww,dont envy me now to all those deprived
of shopping.

p.p.p.s:back to school, and im happy about it,
true geek at heart ;)

va va vooom!

2007-10-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

weee
i'm taking french this semester.
now my french is going to flourish from just
moi and bonjour.
haha,can't wait so bloody excited!

p.s:this weekend is packed,saturday's shopping trip and
sunday we're going to sentosa.
p.p.s:goshhh,i feel an adrenaline rush!

cha-ching!

2007-10-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

ohh yeah!
fat pay cheque coming right up.
hahaha
ok,
should really really really stop online shopping!
already spent $300+ online for clothes
can't wait for shopping trip on saturday ;)

p.s:friday's my last day of work.
p.p.s:late "mornings"
p.p.p.s:oh right,school's starting coming tuesday.
p.p.p.p.s:oh well,at least i get to wear nice,new clothes!

le sigh

2007-10-14T15:39:00.000+08:00

omg,
the crazed overgrown toddlers
have broken into my newly furnished
and impeccably decorated bedroom,
from the self-painted purple walls
to the new hot pink bedshets.
they bounced on my bed as though it
was the bouncy castle in a cheap carnival
and strip my sheets in search of my
terrified cats.
ya,even my cats are terrified,at least they managed
to run for cover.
wasnt so lucky,stuck with toddlers
running around my knees.
where the hell they get all those
energy.
let's get this over and done with,
i want my immaculate bedroom back!

p.s:i miss you,alot,urgh

love me not

2007-10-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile.
been busy with work,
what can i say im such an assiduous employee.
haven't had the time to wallow in self-pity
or self-reproach.
though it has always been at the back of my head,
ominously tugging on my insides to make itself
conspicous and it's prescence known.
and it would send me over the bender.

p.s:i dont want to think i dont want to care,
i just want to be frivolous and indulge in debauchery.

p.p.s:money and shopping makes things better,
even if it's temporary.

talk talk talk

2007-09-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

let the pictures do the talking!
and no,we're not drinking you moronic imbecile.

What sign shouldnt you date?

2007-09-21T20:50:00.001+08:00

Never Date a Libra

Indecisive, flirtatious, and downright deceptive - your Libra will tell you what you want to hear.
Problem is they'll be telling *everyone* what they want to hear.

Instead try dating: Pisces, Taurus, Virgo, or Scorpio

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

What does your birthdate mean for your love life?

2007-09-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: November 27

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.
In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.
You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5

You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

his girlfriend

2007-09-17T18:39:00.001+08:00

his going to get a new girlfriend.

a kitten girfriend.

then he can caress her with his long furry tail.

and then they can make babies.

but no,im sending him to the vet to have his

testicles as fertilizer.

i'll miss his dangling balls.

p.s:nope, his girlfriend is not related to him in anyway.

p.p.s:nope, they're no cousins. how can cousins possibly copulate?

EWWW,that's fucken disgusting.

p.p.p.s:yes, to all dimwits,i'm being sarcastic.

p.p.p.p.s:but i do mean it when i say cousins copulating is disgusting.

why do i keep wanting to know?

altough everything that i know or see just makes it harder to let go.

lalala

2007-09-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

teeth,no teeth

no teeth, teeth

we're tired after hours of boning

but we're so in love

she's my aphrodisiac

she owe me cappucino cookies

i love her teeth

it could tear and masticate the insides of an

unfortunate bastard.

p.s:louis louis louis louis louis louis louis louis louis
p.p.s:hahaha, i know you love him, just like i ~~love~~ him

aite

2007-09-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

i love my cats,really!

i love their paws!

i love to sleep so

im just going to do that.

p.s:my room is purple cause i love purple.

baloney+fuck

2007-09-14T10:38:00.000+08:00

wow
was a damn busy day
to and fro
to and fro
went for training,utter humiliation.
argh,my public speaking was maladroit.
i stuttered and of course talked lickety-split.
the people could actually
feel nervourness radiating off me.
how can i not be nervous,there's 5 pairs of
beady eyes like rodents boring on me.

so anyways,
the best thing happened.
i got picked for TONI & GUY model
casting for their show on 18th sept(next tuesday)
at some club.
i dont if it country club or community club
or whatever club, but it's a club.
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
the most unfortunate thing is
i cant make it.
BOOOOOOOO,i got work to blame
for missing this oppurtunity.
BOO BOO BOOO BOOO
i could have had my hair dyed
by some hot metrosexual guy.

and and and
tomorrow,
i have to work from 8 till 10.
yeah, i counted, its more than 12 hours,
it's 14 hourssss.
i'm so assiduous this week since the preeeding week
was so laid-back.

MORONS

2007-09-13T19:43:00.000+08:00

wtf
they bang the door perpetually like
a barbarian trying to spark a fire using stones.
if they had the authority to bring down
the door, i bet the door would be
detached from its hinges in seconds.
omg, those fugly bastards who collect the
newspaper money is churlish.
they are brutish and uncultured.
it's as though i'm the one that forced him
on a bloody low-end job.
and why the fuck is he questioning me as to how
he should go about his bloody job.
so peremptory as though im wasting his bloody time,
which part of "my parents are not home" do they not
understand.
do they fucking think they're nazis and i have my parents
hiding in a bloody attic living off bread crumbs like mice.
damn,dont get pissy on me just cause your job suck.
that's what you get for being fuckingly stupid and ugly
and have minimal qualifications.
im not the one going door-to-door collecting money
on a rusty and ancient bicycle while
others are enjoying the comfort of their cosy home with
delicious food and great company.
such boorish imbeciles won't go far,that explains the
piteous job.
furthermore,they cant even deliver the fucken papers correctly.
why the fuck am i getting chinese papers for?
or better yet, i dont even fucking get the bloody paper delivered.
are they blind?
do i not know it or is my house inconspicous to the rest of the world?
so i dont see why you should be fucking disrespectful
when you dont even bloody accomplish the job impeccably.
go fuck yourself and stop making a clamor at my fucking corridor.

things are looking up!

2007-09-13T11:25:00.000+08:00

weeee
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job
i got a job

i could go on forever.let the spree begin bitch.
oh yeah,examintion results tomorrow.
need all the luck.
but really, nothing could burst
my impeccable, ebullient bubble.
i could literally break out into a rain dance.
i feel all tingly and hyper,OMG.
it's like i just experienced an intensifying
passionate first kiss.
you know,it's not always that i,
miss the-whole-world-is-against-me,
feels infinitely lucky and blessed.
(i just fucking said a holy word,yes i think bless is a holy word)
you think it's cause i changed my URL.
after all,
sanguine means:hopeful;cheerfully optimistic.
maybe that should be my new year's resolution,
to develop a sanguine disposition.
i'm so happy now.
guess money can really buy happiness?
i love my mum♥

p.s:i think my linguistic tendencies are dying off.

add

2007-09-12T19:39:00.001+08:00

OK
i just had to post this.
GPA 3.21
WEEEEEE!
somebody has got her head stuck in the clouds.

liar liar

2007-09-12T13:03:00.000+08:00

my sister tell tall tales in her blog entries.
she's trying so hard to publicize herself,
IN MY CLOTHES.
especially ones i've yet to try on.
damn her.
she made it seem like she has this hedonistic
and rebellious social life.
when in fact,she's chained to her bed frame.
i often wonder how we're related.
and everytime we have a fight, it's always
about her dipping her slimey hands in
my wardrobe. when she does her unscrupulous act,
i have to fucking nag at her but apparently the message
is not being related through her bloody thick skull.
when i physically let out my angst, it's always me
on the losing end.
i hate her.
and the epilogue to our fighting is me trying to make
it better.
why the hell do i feel guilty when she's the one in the wrong?
i fucking hate to care.
but i guess that's just me.
a softie at heart.
and i hate it.
people trample all over my head like a pack of galloping horses.

p.s:i just want to drift into emptiness.

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2007-09-10T16:05:00.001+08:00

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p.s:everything is screwed.
boo me
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p.p.s:blame my distress for the lack of vocabulary.

dazed

2007-09-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

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what do you know

2007-09-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

YAY
went for the interview all the way at taka.
and im going to get a job
im going to get a job
im going to get a job
hope i ace tomorrows interview
and BOOM $6.50/hr
weeeeeeee
i love money

longing

2007-09-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

sometimes i'm just overwhelmed by
the rush of feelings i could feel all at once.
why didnt i feel pissed?
why was my heart palpitating? it almost
felt excited by his prescence.
an adrenaline rush that had seized its existence in my body
made itself known,who knew i could actually ever feel that again.
it felt like ive achieved a level of normality.
and my wide smile (probably fake, or not) totally betrayed
my hatred for him.
where had the contempt melt away to?
had it even faded?
wow,it almost felt surreal.
i searched deep in my thoughts to find the
hate im suppose to radiate off instead i was
looking out for that familiar face,a sense of longing.
and it got me thinking, was that how he saw me?
and i could see a glimmer of flickering hope
but it could be easily extinguished.

p.s:maybe hating him was too stultifying for me.
it drained the hell out of me to bitch about him or
put a brave and intimidating front everytime his name is mentioned
or in his prescence.

why i'm the bomb

2007-09-01T19:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday was not as bad as expected.
surprise me with the ebullience and peace we shared.
what, you expected me to scratch her eyeballs out?
nah,i shall maintain my cool.
hahaha,whatever let bygones be bygones,right?
guess the stupid poker game broke the palpable tension
and awkwardness.

what i tell is much paler in comparison to reality.
it's not that simple, it was never simple.
it's things like this that makes it harder to swallow
the bitter pill.

p.s:it sucks and makes it all the more true and credible
when you hear it from someone else's mouth.
A partial observer who has no personal interest in the matter,
it bites.

p.p.s:i foresee lazy days ahead,i need a fcuking job.

just like goats

2007-08-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

okay,nothing worth blogging about,
EXCEPT, its the holidays!
oh weeeee, i can catch up on my much deprived
sleep.
maths was actually manageable just now.
in fact, better then biochemistry.
now my only dilemma is choosing biotechology
or biomedical technology.
it's suck a big decision, i dont want to regret it.
i'm more keen on biotechnology, the things is,
i've to take biochemistry 2. i like the subject and all
but the exam paper dampened my hopes of acing that
subject.
biomedical technology on the other hand is more challenging,
only 50 students can get accepted into that course.
so, it's obviously a top-notch course and is very competitive.

p.s: i saw your blur. it was pretty hot but the chances of anything
happening is as good as a drop of rain on a hot summer's day.
p.p.s:melting popsicles

drop dead

2007-08-29T15:42:00.000+08:00

okay biochemistry totally okalala-ding dong
damnnnnnn
i feel so stupid,i feel like an imbecile.
i have a foreboding feeling about this.
as i read the questions before the paper officially started
i could hear the ommious crashing of my bloody brain.
i dont want take supp paper.
tommorow, LAST PAPER,HAH,maths and stats.
damn it damn it damn it
then, im going shopping,yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

p.s:this happens when you keep reading in between the lines
of what people say,you become neurotic.
p.p.s:i wish it was only my brother & me, then i wont have to deal with
my bras or panties or necklace or clothes going missing.

anxiety can kill?

2007-08-29T13:21:00.000+08:00

it worries me that i've been such an avid blogger.
it could mean i'm in a stage of ennui.
or something's bugging me.
or im only thinking too much cause im bored?
im so twisted.

p.s:it's ludicrous to hold onto something that's not going to happen.
no amount of optimism can erase all of that.
p.p.s:if only i mean what i say!
p.p.p.s:deluding myself is half the battle won right?

im such a contradiction

2007-08-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

why cant i say what i mean
and mean what i say

p.s: ugly people cant afford to be picky,
especially when it comes to interaction with others,
ie:relationships.

2007-08-27T15:32:00.000+08:00

im going bonkers
i want to morph into dolphins
and play in the ocean and do flips and stuffs
if that's too much to ask for can
i be a leprachaun?
short stumpy green people with red beard.
then i shall be on my way to find that pot of gold.
OR! i could hibernate and nestle in someone's comfy pocket.

p.s:ovulation, corpus luteum secretes estrogen and some progesterone.
this would inhibit the secertion of LH and FSH.
thus low levels of LH and FSH.
the high levels of estrogen and progesterone would maintain the thickness
of the endometrium. which brings us to the next phase, secretory.

p.p.s: haha, in the next say 20 years when i read this again, i'd be clueless.
unless, i become a gynaecologist. HAH,a likely story, i dont find joy in
peeking through other women's "birth canal".

i bet your face hurts from pretending to care

2007-08-26T17:45:00.000+08:00

gosh,you know my laptop is one freaking distraction.
it keeps calling my name!
telling me caress and smother it with my fingers.
ESPECIALLY when i'm studying.
damn you laptop.
hmph,maybe it's time i name you.
i shall call you _____(i'll figure a nice name later)
yeah, im so ridiculous but whatever, i
got nobody to impress.

i have a foreboding and sinking feeling about
going back to secondary school for teacher's day.
i imagine it to be a bad depiction of the OC, an
abysmal comedy of errors.
gosh,i dont know.
i hate all those little forced chats like
"hey how are you?", "what school?"
etc etc etc
then followed by palpable tension and awkward
silence.
oh yeah, not forgetting all those envious bitches
who's going to start rating what you're wearing,
so superficial.
and the teachers,damn,it sure is going to bring
up my teen foible that resulted in delinquency?
i dont know how to put it nicely.
whoooppppeee,sure is going to be fun.(flat,monotonous tone)

p.s:at least i get to meet those sweet sweet bicthes of mine.
p.p.s:AND it's the holidays for ME,WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

BLOODY PISSED OFF!

2007-08-25T13:59:00.000+08:00

to: farahlina bte jamal (my bloody ~~sister~~)

damn you.
it's bad enough FOR ME that i have to share a bloody
fucking room with you, for those traumatic
17 years!(and still counting) and i'm still convalescing from
it all.
you're the worse roomine ever,despite the fact that
i've NEVER experienced sharing a room with anybody else.
YOU'RE still going to be the worse!
unfortunately, there's no oficial or recognized award
to besmirch you.
if so, all your potential husbands would be warned.
if it's anybody who can tolerate the bitchy stench you're
giving off or that somehow, out of the frigging blue moon
their things goes missing.
PFFFT!
once a bloody fucking theif always a blooding fucking.
but you're going to be a bloody fucking DEAD theif
when i see you.
URGHHHHH! you disgust me.
why cant you bloody leave your bloody
fucking itchy hands away from my things,
there's a fucking LOGICAL reason
why we have seperate wardrobes. and maybe it's time we
have seperate rooms.
and of course when i confront you about my "missing"
things, you would INDIGNANTLY repudiate with
that freakishly straight face without blinking your
eye!
HAH, lying comes with good practice i suppose.
but,you still need to work on your stealing.
and then maybe, when you grow up (if i dont kill you)
you could major in robbery and buglary as well.
i heard they pay good money.

p.s: ya well, that's my proverbial(as of now) conniving,fraudulent
and unscrupulous ~~sister~~

and she's back vengence

2007-08-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

wooo,it's my 100th post.
okay, big deal.

how come i dont feel the adrenaline rush
and the palpitating heart
or circling a spot
or soporific doubts and qualms
or that queasiness at the core of my tummy
i feel so wrong
or MAYBE,im unconsciously feeling stressed
but my nonchalance is masking my fear
therefore i feel relaxed?
yaaaa,i'm a failed psychologist.

im in a dilemma
should i hate you?
is it ethical for me to hate you?
but,dang, i'd be a repugnant imbecile
(not to mention a disgrace to all females)
to not hate you, right?
i'm still in a state of incredulity although it
had been months old.maybe it's denial?
or i just refuse to have my perception of
you tainted by your irrational and impetous behaviour
which was, of course, instigated by me.
or that you changed and that you're not the same
person i had known.
yeah, i prefer monotony. no surprises, no major calamities.
i hate change and your meretricious "other half".

p.s: i want an impeccable hedonistic life,please?
p.p.s: i love those furry pussies
p.p.p.s:this entry has 'sucks to care' all over it

brain cracking moments

2007-08-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

studied with ILI and SHAHIMAH at esplanade library.
yes, i studied ok.pffft,so bloody hardworking.
bring it you bloody education,c'mon work me out!
is that the best you've got.
AHAHAHAH
ok,that's
the bloody freaking last off all
the okalalala-ding-a-ling-a-ling
i can take
GOD DAMNIT
i can feel my freaking temple throbbing
& i get so bitchy(more than usual) when i dont
bloody get it or clueless about everything around me.
that's what I get for being aloof.
urgh,i have a gazzillion other important facts to remember
than some 1 week old stale gossip.
gosh,i'm aloof.
not dumb or deaf or retarded enough to be cut off from
the mainstream of humanity.
okay,now just let me study okay.

p.s:i long for my secondary school days.
hmph, i had the high road social life
pretty girlfriends
pretty boyfriend
was in love
doing so well in my studies (okay not SO well,
a couple of Cs here & there) despite the fact
i skipped school like 28749842092 times.
those were the days,now it's gone. why do we
have to grow up so fast.
am i the only precocious one?
i want play hopscotch and five stones.
not stuck in front of freakishly thick lecture notes with
sketchy foot notes all over it
and coffee stains.
aha, ok i dont drink coffee,must be the cats.
i could be indulging in something sinful right now
(or someone) ;D
*you wish you block head*

FIREWORKS

2007-08-21T00:48:00.000+08:00

I hate queues, i hate kruch-van-de-poooop crowds
BUT i love my bitches okay!
spermatazoons just give me a frigging migrain.
thinking of what you did just make me
detest you.

GODDDD,oh please,please,please let my distress disissipate. Dont tempt me,my conscience and principles are precariously balanced.Limited perserverence and abstinence.

you bloody skank,im killing you

2007-08-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

ok whatever.
whatever schmever
why make things complicated than it has to be?
do people find joy underneath all this confusion
and ficticious presumtions based on unworthy observations and
the shackle-doo-a-doo the prig is spewing.
urgh,if only we had brains that function
or better yet ones that dont get easily manipulated
or influenced.
or one that doesnt get overruled by the heart.
but then,where does that leave me?
maybe, it was preordained for me not to enjoy
the perks of being in love and the comfort of friendship
simultaneously.
why cant i have everything,damn it.
& why must i care?
i dont want to care! my stupid ugly head!
why wont you listen to me,for im your master.

p.s:i'd rather do my head in with the studying than think about
flmmp-shoo-loops i'm hoping/expecting/manipulating to happen.
youcch,it's not happening.get over it

LOL!

2007-08-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

KAKAKAKA!

2007-08-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

oh weeee!
what a wonderful delight!
I start school at 3pm tomorrow.
I'm going to sleep till 11
or 12
ok maybe 2
wahahahaha!
i have officially gone berserk trying to
remember mechanisms and biological reactions
and systems
&&&&&&&&
i've gone manic

p.s:my cats cant stop sniffing me.do I smell fishy?
ok,dont answer that

i'm finding ways

2007-08-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
this is the longest i've not heard from you.
looooooongest, by far.
i know i shouldnt even be bothered about your well-being anymore,
after what you did & said.
but oh well, im not such a mean & revengeful person.
maybe not to you.
it irks me that i still care.
you annoy me, REALLY.
i just hope you're safe.

okay,let's get the exams over & done with!
i'm so excited about the exams.
*fingers crossed* sooo dont want to take supp paper.
pleeeeeeaseee
i've beeeeen studying DAMN hard,it HAS to pay off damn it.GRRRR!

p.s:je, we're soooo bloody irresponsible!TSK,TSK,TSK.